but I want to tell them
that all of this shit
is just debris
leftover when we finally decide to smash all the things we thought
we used to be
and if you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself
get a better mirror
look a little closer
stare a little longer
because there’s something inside you
that made you keep trying
despite everyone who told you to quit
you built a cast around your broken heart
and signed it yourself
you signed it
“they were wrong”
because maybe you didn’t belong to a group or a clique
maybe they decided to pick you last for basketball or everything
maybe you used to bring bruises and broken teeth
to show and tell but never told
because how can you hold your ground
if everyone around you wants to bury you beneath it
you have to believe that they were wrong.
But love is not perfect,
and will sometimes forget,
when you need to hear it most,
“You are beautiful.”
Do not forget this.
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Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye, When Love Arrives (via quoted-books)
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you crucified me on hardwood floors for all the times i didn’t answer the phone as you were speeding down the highway, panic settled into the passenger seat and reminded you what you were dying for.
you admitted in a confessional how wrong you did me, ligature marks leaving a violet shade across my ankles and wrists from nights you spat out a string of profanities on my entire existence. i’d go to hell, but i don’t want to risk seeing you again.
you never believed in god until you saw yourself as one, the wine from the communion turned you into a man who had never stepped foot in a church. you looked at the bruises you left, and told me you liked me in blue.
I’ve been learning to look on the bright side of things lately and in realizing how much you lost when you lost me, I’ve also realized how much I am. I will one day be the girl you tell your son about, the girl you chose let go and not come back, even when she tried. You will tell your son about how my eyes sparkled when I talked about the things I loved and how you thought I had the most soothing voice in your world. You will tell him how you tried to keep being my friend because the end of ‘us’ for you was not the end for me but you thought maybe it might be so you tried and tried and tried until one day I cried and would not let you touch me anymore. You will tell him about the girl who would have loved you to the ends of the earth, who sometimes still does. You will tell him to always take pictures with his girl, because you never did with me and you wish you had. You will tell him how sometimes, you still try checking up on me. You search for me on Facebook, look at old yearbooks, try to remember the feeling you had that one night. You will tell your son about me, and how even though you destroyed me for a little while, I came back stronger than I ever was before. You will tell him to respect, to believe, and to love unabashedly. One day you will realize that I am the lesson you have to teach your son, and I’m okay with that.
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The Girl You’ll Tell Your Son About January 20, 2016 12:20am c.n.p | thesoulpages (via thesoulpages)
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He’s got eyes that know what it’s like to watch a murder in the mirror
Thirteen shots of vodka seems unrealistic until you’re standing in the bathroom
Looking yourself in the eyes as you shoot back the last one
“This is what it’s like to be alive” you say and throw up in the sink.
She hasn’t seen Sunday mornings since she discovered how many bars let minors in on Saturdays if they just show some skin
So she’s been showing all her skin and forgetting to confess her sins
It’s hard to tell the man behind the grate what you’ve done wrong when you’re still drunk from last night
“This is what I want” she mumbles as she passes out in the back seat of someone’s car.
He says he loves the way strangers feel pressed against his skin
But he goes home and scrubs and scrubs until he bleeds
Everyone claps him on the back when they hear he got laid for the third time in as many days
He laughs along with them and says
“I’m the man” but the next time a girl offers
he declines.
You find that if you drink enough and smoke enough you’ll forget enough to be happy enough
But that only lasts for so long and when you come out of the haze you’re still left with the life you were running from
You’re still left with puzzle pieces that never quite fit together.
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But that doesn’t stop you from buying another round– Lily Rain (via wont-time-love-us)
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This is what I want:
You, existing perfectly in this bed.
Me, curled up in your arms.
Aries: “I know he broke your heart, and I know you still drink his favorite liquor to try and taste him again. But it’s time you let him go”
Taurus: “I know you hate your job. Start looking for new opportunities this is the year you’re finally happy”
Gemini: “Start learning to love yourself, touch your tummy and your thighs with good extensions, enough hate”
Cancer: “This is the year you fall in love, let it happen”
Leo: “I know you’ve been trying really hard lately, you don’t have to keep it all inside, let it out”
Virgo: “This is the year you finally do all of the things you’ve been too scared to do”
Libra: “If there’s someone in your life that’s hurting you or is not lifting you up for the love of God let them go”
Scorpio: “You are a star, start treating yourself like one”
Sagittarius: “This Is the year you love what you do, don’t be afraid”
Capricorn: “Don’t be afraid to push yourself to the limits”
Aquarius: “Give them one more chance, they won’t let you down this time”
Pisces: “Learn to stand up for yourself this time”
When June came around you told me you couldn’t love me anymore and it was then that I understood the only way to survive this was to learn to love myself more. It is now January and though self-love is a work in progress, I can finally look at you and feel nothing but gratitude.
Today
you did something that was hard
because it was necessary.
Well done.
Today
you chose to not do something hard
because you needed to take care of yourself.
Well done.
Today
you had enough energy
to do a dozen things on your list.
Well done.
Today
you had enough energy to do one small thing
and you did it.
Well done.
Today
you were tired
or
you were not.
Either way
well done.
Today
you are alive
and well enough to read this
because you know how to keep going
even when it is hard
but also
because you know how to stop pushing
when it is necessary.
On both counts
well done.
